IT'S CALLED "EMPATHY".. SOME PEOPLE NEED TO LEARN IT IN ORDER TO OPERATE IN THIS LIFETIME TO GAIN RESPECT.

in case you're naive and convinced otherwise- my family has obviously been LITTLE to NO help to me. I got myself where I am today. if it was up to amanda (the person who i was told would help me get to where I am truly happy and successful), i'd still be in the subsidized shithole of an apartment that i lived in burnsville. she was just concerned with making me feel satisfied and content with giving up ALL of my goals. because after all- i DO have a traumatic brain injury- so in her eyes that means i have to haul my ass to courage kenny every fuckin day and not ask anyone to help me progress in life because i AM a complete imbicile who has a traumatic brain injury! NO ONE LISTENS TO ME ANYWAY RIGHT, EINSTEIN?! ALL i'm capable of is MINDLESSLY attending some overrated, sad excuse of a "rehabilitation institute" which only helps people with proactive, supporting advocates! SOMETHING I OBVIOUSLY LACK! i had this conversation with my psychologist today (i've had MANY conversations similar to this one) about how i'm almost certain that amanda got the idea that being my "advocate" would be just like how my grandma was to my mom. NO ONE in this world is the exact same as another person. situations between EVERYONE are always different. EVEN if it means going against your damn convenience. IF you REALLY cared about another person- you'd actually make an effort to help them the way THEY want and need to be helped in order to be a truly successful, happy person. you may just sarcastically and PRETENTIOUSLY laugh at me finding support in the ONLY person in my family who cares about me but his lifestyle has NOTHING to do with the love and support i get from him. he's aware that i recognize that and SHOULD BE too. he's got more care and experience in life than any of you could ever HOPE to have. you all could learn something from him if you dropped your ignorant, entitled fucking attitudes. JOE is the ONLY relative of mine that actually helps me the way I want and NEED to be helped. might have something to do with genes because my grandpa just seemed like a more genuinely caring person, so the help comes from that side of the family now. not JUST because my grandma expects it because that's her family either and families are SUPPOSED to "support" one another- regardless if what they want for themselves is different from what they want. now that she's dead though- she doesn't have knowledge of how amanda refuses to help me in the way that my grandma used to swear to me that she would help ME and not just my uncaring, entitled mom who didn't have to go through living through a coma for 6 months, busting her ass in rehab. to get OUT of a wheelchair, and banging the hell outta her body when falling while trying to behave and operate like a NORMAL, HEALTHY person (NOT TO FORGET TWO SURGERIES ON MY BOWEL THANKS TO HER NEGLECTFUL, SELFISH ASS). it's ridiculous that you idiots don't understand WHY i want to move from this unopportunistic state where i don't get any care or support given to me (except joe- but i can't put everything on him). besides- i have absolutely NO interest in remaining in this state- they can't even give me my damn driver's license back without trying to take advantage of my disability. it's not like there's a good transportation system available around here either.